Stardom . 48x30 inches . 2010

1. natural lighting
2. artificial (interior) lighting
3. combined uv and interior lighting
4. uv lighting only
5. no light (glow in the dark)

Ingredients: acrylic, sand, candle wax, a little red wine, crushed glass, phosphorescent pigments, varnish, water & light on canvas. 

 Ahh, purple. Thus begins my love affair with purple.

This truly looks nothing like my original sketch for it, and I'm okay with that. My sketches are usually just jumping off points, from which I create something that inevitably dives into chaos and unpredictability. I like to "guide" my paintings into whatever they're going to be, but I allow the process to play itself out. In many ways, I'm just along for the ride.

I didn't specifically intend for it to be so emotional. It just happened. I'm not quite sure if there's an emotional space in my mind trying to break free or if it's merely a happy accident. I knew it while painting though. Part of me was afraid to let you see it. I wasn't sure what you would think. I wasn't sure what I was saying with it.

Truthfully, it doesn't matter what I was thinking, because once the art is finished it's not up to me how people feel about it. I just make them. I'm working through it as I go. I try to be present and intuitive while working, but the creation itself is my expression. The rest is up to you.

What do you think this painting is about?

Some close ups:

This is the first of many pieces I'm creating for a solo show I'll be having in Hollywood, California on March 26th, 2011. I'll be giving more information about that over the next few months. I hope you can make it. It's going to be incredible. I'm very nervous and very excited. 

If you're interested in acquiring this painting before or after the show, please email me and we'll discuss specifics. :) *UPDATE: This painting is now sold.*


Steven said...

Very cool S.

Can't wait to see more and looking forward to your show in March.

shayla said...

Thanks, Steven. :)

Anonymous said...

Congrats on the show!! You will be great!

I love the "change-up" of the style of this piece... it's gorgeous and feels darker and deeper...

shayla said...

Thanks so much! Really appreciate it.

Yeah, my husband says I'm going through a "darker period" now. Heh.

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emily said...

Hmm. To me, the stars represent a person's soul, their true self. Unvarnished truth.

They are covered by layer upon layer of - the masks we wear to make our way through the day, to be who we need to appear to be at any given time, any situation. To conform to others' expectations; to look and act "professional" at work; to blend into the crowd when we need to; to stand out from the crowd and be noticed. When the masks are washed away,one's true, unprotected self is revealed.

Or, the layers might be of pollution, partisan politics, war...the things that keep people in so many parts of the world from freedom, happiness, living their life to its potential. I think that would be a darker painting, though.

But to me, personally, the painting represents me hiding and protecting my vulnerable self from my abusive husband, and now I'm re-emerging, intact, glowing with life now that I've escaped.

Over the years, gradually, layer up on layer, with each new insult, each each twisted lie he invented just to hurt me, I created a hard shell, rather like an oyster, obscuring my true self to protect my heart, my soul from being utterly destroyed by him.

I left him 3 months ago, and now the layers are gradually washing away. I am emerging intact, my heart and soul alight with the re-discovered joy of freedom. that I've thought it over a bit, I really love this painting!